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[maniacmarshall]

Remember a few weeks back when I posted about The Abby being across the street? I was right, it's WAY too damn convenient.

Today was a lot better day at work, and I finally get a few days off after tomorrow, yay. This 90 hours in 10 days stuff really wears me out, especially when I spend 8 hours driving on my one day off.

I need to catch up on some posts: The Rockies, College Football (especially Illinois and Missouri) and finally getting my Dragon Con report posted being a premium. I also have a half completed post on Kingmaker, which might interest acciochocolate and eve11

What little time I have had this last 10 days has largely been spent working with my Clue league. I'd forgotten what a really nice bunch of people these folks are. Big hug to Mel for working so hard on the league. I really need to get motivated to start working on other areas of Caelestia as well. I just wish I could do SOMETHING for other people. Sometimes I wonder if my entire life hasn't really gone to waste.

What little other time I've had this week has been spent on what seems like it's going to turn out to be a pointless endeavor. Have you ever had a friend that's been hurt really badly by someone else when they did NOTHING wrong to deserve it? Have you ever, in that situation, felt like you would have the means to bring both relief and justice to that person, only to find out that you completely struck out on both counts?

This has been my experience the last few days. I haven't given up, far from that, but I just hate it because I feel like I've, so far at least, let down someone who I've discovered that I care a great deal about. I'm not sure why I feel this strongly, I just know that I do. I've always been one who latches onto people for better or worse I suppose. This person deserves so much more than I've been able to deliver so far, and it irritates me no end. Yet another thread in the web of my life where I feel as though I should be able to do something for someone else, but I feel that I have failed her miserably.

I guess this is my mid life crisis =/ I just wish I could make really meaningful contributions, but everything I try to do seems destined to fail.

Maybe it's just my seasonal affective disorder talking... That usually doesn't hit till November, but then I usually have Archon to get me through early October, and I usually have my beloved Cardinals to see me through the first few weeks as well. I've latched onto the Rockies, but, somehow, it seems and act of desperation, and I know that it will only get worse come November... I hate November...

I miss my Cardinals more than usual this October... I'm reminded again of one of my favorite quotes, by the late A. Bartlett Giamatti

It breaks your heart. It is designed to break your heart. The game begins in the spring, when everything else begins again, and it blossoms in the summer, filling the afternoons and evenings, and then as soon as the chill rains come, it stops and leaves you to face the fall alone.

Meh, I should go to bed before I get more depressed.

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[eve11]

Perhaps that's why we've got Thanksgiving in November-- an oasis island of family, good food and football with none of the gift-giving obligations, in a sea of a gloomy month.

In terms of helping others; I've been in that situation too, and it's frustrating when you don't think you can do enough, when you feel you've let someone down, or what they need is beyond what you can give. But it's best in those cases to just be there for the other person, and be honest and trustworthy, and be yourself. No-one expects their friends to be superheroes. Sometimes you don't realize how much of an impact you are making, just by being there and reminding them that they do deserve better, even if you can't fix everything.

And you listened to the Kingmaker! I'm eager to read your post on it :) In fact I've got it queued up on my iPod for listening on the drive tomorrow. :)

[maniacmarshall.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

You know, I was just thinking about how I hadn't heard from you and another of my friends in a while at work today, and lo and behold, I come home to more words of wisdom from you. I think it would have been worth the trip to DC just to meet you, because you have an almost uncanny ability to cheer me up. You've already got a special place in my heart. If you ever become adoptable, let me know =P

I really don't have much family left unfortunately, but, it's still a plesant thought. I will be spending Thanksgiving in Atlanta. I'll be posting my insane travel week probably tomorrow.

I agree with your assessment. This isn't the first time I've been in this situation, and it won't be the last I'm sure. The problem is that this person was way unjustly ridiculed by some idiot who's posting things that pretty much violate anything approximating decency. Not just about this person, but about a particular community. The place is littered with racist and sexist remarks among other atrocities. I thought I had some friends who would help me take care of getting the idiot shut down, but no, they don't seem interested.

I won't mention the idiot or his site by name because I don't want to draw attention to the idiot. I usually don't even get involved in this kind of thing. If you are really interested, and you might be as it involves something you yourself do, I'll email you the details.

I usually adopt a don't feed the troll attitude with these kinds of people, but this time he made it personal for me by attacking someone I care about.

I know my friend doesn't expect me to be a superhero, realistically, they probably don't expect anything from me, the problem, of course, is that *I* expect me to be a superhero... always have, probably always will. Comes with the territory for someone who uses the nickname Underdog in most places on the internet...

Umm, unfortunately, I was referring to the game... (you did say it sounded like fun...), however, since I don't have the HD here that would has access to that Audio, if you would know of somewhere that I could, hypothetically, get access to it, I would be more than happy to listen to it this weekend and make a post about it without fail (because I don't want to let another friend down! hehe).

[eve11]

Internet trolls are so frustrating :( Stupid annoying gits, all of them, immature idiots crying out for attention. They're like... I don't know... the Garbage Pail Kids of the Interwebs or something.

We should make an internet troll card game.

and ha! I forgot about the game! I've got the audio on my mind. You really need to listen to it, but don't do so for my sake, I feel kind of sheepish for forgetting there was a game too ;) Anyway, I'll set up a locked post for you later on today ;) As far as continuity goes, all you really have to know is that Peri and the Doctor picked up a companion named Erimem in ancient egypt; she's a Pharoah's daughter.

[a-blue-moon-cat.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

The baseball quote is so true! And I'm afraid I'm on the other side; if I can't support the Braves or the Cubbies, I'll be in there for the Red Sox. Yeah, my three fave teams, and often, all a bunch of lusers, but I love the guys anyhow.